The Eternal Butterfly

According to Merriam-Webster, a father is a man who has begotten a child. According to the dictionary of me, a daddy is a man who has actively contributed to the development of a child he helped create through being a caregiver, protector, provider, teacher, friend, etc.. "And he taught me to be strong He told me when he's gone Here's what you do When trouble comes to town And men like me come around Oh, my daddy said shoot Oh, my daddy said shoot" Daddy Lessons, Beyoncé I recently listened to an episode of one of my favorite podcasts, Gettin' Grown  titled  Daddy Lessons  where the hosts Jade and Keia, along with their guests, Crissle and Fran, discussed and reflected on their experiences and relationships with their fathers from childhood into adulthood. Needless to say, it inspired this post. I want to preface this by saying that this is not meant to bash or make my father out to be a terrible person. The intention of this is to share my e...

Yo, what the heck was I thinking returning to school after being out of school for 4 years??? Also, what was I thinking moving across the country away from every person I know and love with no one to call a friend in my new city? Man, life is kicking my butt. Let's talk school first. It's an adjustment to return to learning after having been out of school for several years. I think I was aware that it would be challenging, but I didn't expect to still be struggling seven weeks into the semester. I have three classes, two of which are more demanding than the third. But I've been managing, well at least I thought I was. My focus hasn't been where I need it to be. I sit down to do homework or study and can only sit still for fifteen minute chunks. It's a struggle! And don't let the material be something I'm already struggling with, then we can cut that fifteen minutes in half. However, in those rare moments I find my groove for a longer time, I find mysel...